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    17 December

    Talking about YouTube - Charlotte Church & Placido Domingo - Oh Holy Night, Live

     

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    23 January

    The Ravager Returns Part II

    Sumbitch. Completely forgot that I had a blog... again.
     
    News of the millennium - I'm getting hitched.
     
    Yeah, you heard that right. About damn time, huh?
     
    Been having the best years of my life lately. Was a time when two of my closest homies were working with me in the same company. Then one had to spread a scandal and hold a grudge against his ex that got him booted out. Dumbf*ck.
     
    Been taking regular vacations now. Been to the beach 3 times last year.
     
    Been playing Dota a lot. Still not very good at it. But getting there.
     
    Been working. And working. And working. And working. And working.....
     
    Life's been good, outside of SkyCable dropping JackTV and Basketball TV.
     
    Lyrics for the day (Metal)
     
    The Longest Day
    Iron maiden
    In the gloom the gathering storm abates
    In the ships gimlet eyes await
    The call to arms to hammer at the gates
    To blow them wide throw evil to its fate
     
    All summers long the drills to build the machine
    To turn men from flesh and blood to steel
    From paper soldiers to bodies on the beach
    From summer sands to armageddon's reach
     
    Overlord, your master not your god
    The enemy coast dawning grey with scud
    These wretched souls puking, shaking fear
    To take a bullet for those who sent them here
     
    The world's alight, the cliffs erupt in flame
    No escape, remorseless shrapnel rains
    Drowning men no chance for a warrior's fate
    A choking death enter hell's gate
     
    Sliding we go, only fear on our side
    To the edge of the wire,
    And we rush with the tide
    Oh the water is red,
    With the blood of the dead
    But I'm still alive, pray to God I survive
     
    How long on this longest day
    'Til we finally make it through
    How long on this longest day
    'Til we finally make it through
    How long on this longest day
    'Til we finally make it through
    How long on this longest day
    'Til we finally make it through
     
    The rising dead, faces bloated torn
    They are relieved, the living wait their turn
    Your number's up, the bullet's got your name
    You still go on, to hell and back again
     
    Valhalla waits, valkyries rise and fall
    The warrior tombs, lie open for us all
    A ghostly hand reaches through the veil
    Blood and sand, we will prevail
     
    Sliding we go, only fear on our side
    To the edge of the wire,
    And we rush with the tide
    Oh the water is red,
    With the blood of the dead
    But I'm still alive, pray to God I survive
     
    How long on this longest day
    'Til we finally make it through
    How long on this longest day
    'Til we finally make it through
    How long on this longest day
    'Til we finally make it through
    How long on this longest day
    'Til we finally make it through
     
    How long on this longest day
    'Til we finally make it through
    How long on this longest day
    'Til we finally make it through
    How long on this longest day
    'Til we finally make it through
    How long on this longest day
    'Til we finally make it through
     
    Lyrics for the day (New Wave)
     
    Tears
    The Chameleons
     
    It's just coincidence
    Well you can talk that way
    But I have to say
    I don't believe in it
    And with the chill of chance
    I decided to dance the days away

    And I wasn't worried at all
    Sneaking through the backdoor
    No I wasn't worried at all
    Dreams are what you live for
     
    Waiting for the light to turn green
    Carry me home
    To the kindest eyes that I've ever seen
    Carry me home
    Can you tell me how will it be now
    How will it be?
     
    Well we were younger then
    And the days were long and slow
    But were we wiser then
    I couldn't say
    I wouldn't know

    But I wasn't worried at all
    I had someone to run to
    No I wasn't worried at all
    I knew which way the wind blew

    Counting out the chaos and gloom
    Carry me home
    And I'll watch the ceiling spin round the room
    Carry me home
    Can you tell me how will it be now?
    How will it be?
     
    In the real world how will it be?
    In a cold world how will it be?
    In a lonely world
    (Beg and crawl)
    How will it be?
    Will the ghosts just stop!
    Following me
    Now drawn into the sun
    He was the only one
    He cries out to everyone
    For his only son
     
    From the window of my room now
    I can see the colour blue now
    You can't even look in my eyes now
    What would you see
    If you could look into my eyes now
    What would you see
    What would you see
    It's a coincidence
    You can talk that way
    I don't believe in it
    19 March

    The Ravager Returns

    Sumbitch. Completely forgot that I had a blog...
     
    What to write? Lotsa shit been happening over the past 6 months since I last posted something here...
     
    Lemme see. Was supposed to go back to Sykes after accepting a pathetic offer for my services but ended up staying, celebrated my first Christmas with a girlfriend for the first time in years, was promoted to Operations Manager, got to watch the WWE RAW Tour at the Araneta Coliseum, had to get surgery for my back problem...
     
    Yep. Lotsa shit going on since my last blog.
     
    Damn... lotsa GOOD shit happening.
     
    Great thing I stayed. Didn't end up regretting my decision. It took me 6 months to nab the post I should've been applying for when I was at Sykes. All's well that ends well, I guess. Now that I'm an Operations Manager, I wanna go back to taking calls full time...
     
    MSN. 3 centers in 2 countries, and 1 client. MSN. They should award me with a loyalty plaque or something...
     
    Got to see Triple H, Big Show, RVD, John Cena, Carlito, Chris Masters, Shelton Benjamin, and... WOOOOO!!!... The Nature Boy, Ric Flair himself when the WWE invaded Manila, despite civil unrest in the streets of Balut Republic. You should've seen me get goosebumps while I was forcing myself to believe that I was actually watching Ric Flair - THE MAN HIMSELF, 16 TIME WORLD CHAMPION AND QUITE POSSIBLY THE GREATEST PROFESSIONAL WRESTLER TO EVER WALK GOD'S GREEN EARTH - wrestle in the flesh. Sure, he lost to Shelton Benjamin (who's a pretty good athlete in his own right), but that doesn't diminish the fact that for 15 minutes I was breathing the same air that he was and we were in the same building together. Why am I making such a big deal about Naitch? I dunno, maybe because he's one of the few wrestlers I truly respected, never needing dumb gimmicks, just pure wrestling ability and athleticism. THE MAN!
     
    Those muscleheads look much bigger on TV. Dammit, next time I'm getting ringside seats...
     
    I'll be celebrating something I've never celebrated before in a week's time. MY VERY FIRST ANNIVERSARY WITH A LOVED ONE. 29 years and this happens for the first time for me. Can't wait for it. It'll be one helluva celebration for my Hon and I.
     
     
    Lyrics for the day (Metal)
     
    Bastard Nation
    Overkill
     
    Twisted torn and ripped,
    The balance goes away.
    Mine is but an active immagination.
    Tear the boundary down!
    Know more line.
    Take a look inside the bastard that you find.
    Yelling screamed and ripped,
    Just to have a say.
    Yours is but an over exaggeration.
    Throw the civil down!
    Kill your fear.
    Feel the need, to act on what you hear!
     
    Did they say we were hard?!
    Did they say we were separation?!
    Citizens of a bastard nation?!
     
    Waste me for what I do,
    Not for what you hate.
    Guilt became the prime motivation.
    Throw the civil down!
    Kill his seed.
    Let's cut out the heart to see if it bleeds.
    Crippled lame and trapped,
    The balance falls away.
    Move, to total separation.
    Dissolve the boundary now!
    Kill the line.
    You become the new! bastard that you find.
     
    Did they say we were hard?!
    Did they say we were separation?!
    Citizens of a bastard nation?!
     
    I'll walk away if you do.
    And I'll stay if you do.
    What you fear? Fearing be a man.
     
    Did they say we were hard?!
    Did they say we were separation?!
    Citizens of a bastard nation?!
    Lyrics for the day (New Wave)
     
    Suffer the Children
    Tears for Fears
     
    It's a sad affair
    When there's no one there
    He calls out in the night
    And it's so unfair
    At least it seems that way
    When you gave him his life

    And all this time he's been getting you down
    You ought to pick him up when there's no one around
    And convince him
    Just talk to him
    Cos he knows in his heart you won't be home soon
    He's an only child in an only room
    And he's dependant on you
    And it seems so strange
    That at the end of the day
    Making love can be so good
    But the Pain of birth
    What is it worth
    When it don't turn out the way it should
    16 September

    AAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!

    8 sup calls for the whole shift.
     
    EIGHT!
     
    E-I-G-H-T!
     
    I haven't had this many sup calls since I was an L2! Plus I'm behind on QM sessions uploaded (8 sessions vs a quota of 24). Plus I'm overstaying at the office again to make sure my work gets done. Back to the old days, only in a different environment.
     
    I've posted nothing but rants on this blog. I'm beginning to wonder if this is normal for a blogger.
     
    I gotta head to Recto, buy some contraband CDs and do some serious headbanging for stress therapy. Now, THAT'S an idea.
     
    Wonder if those guys have the new Vio-Lence re-issue I asked for the last time I came around? Or the Fear Factory albums I've been looking for...
     
    Of course, a visit to the health spa wouldn't hurt, either...
     
    Or a jam session with the guys. Man, I miss playing "System," "Another Form of Godhood," "The Karmic Chain," and "To The Bondage Born."
     
    Only been on the floor for 2 weeks and I already need a break.
     
    Lyrics for the day (Metal)
     
    Eye of the Beholder
    Metallica
     
    Do You See What I See?
    Truth Is an Offence
    You Silence for Your Confidence
    Do You Hear What I Hear?
    Doors Are Slamming Shut
    Limit Your Imagination, Keep You Where They must
    Do You Feel What I Feel?
    Bittering Distress
    Who Decides What You Express
    Do You Take What I Take?
    Endurance Is the Word
    Moving Back Instead of Forward Seems to Me Absurd
     
    Doesn't Matter What You See?
    Or into it What You Read
    You Can Do it Your Own Way
    If It's Done Just How I Say
     
    Independence Limited
    Freedom of Choice
    Choice Is Mad for You My Friend
    Freedom of Speech
    Speech Is Words That They Will Bend
    Freedom with Their Exception
     
    Do You Fear What I Fear?
    Living Properly
    Truths to You Are Lies to Me
    Do You Choose What I Choose?
    More Alternives
    Energy Derives from Both the plus and Negative
    Do You Need What I Need?
    Boundaries Overthrown
    Look Inside to Each His Own
    Do You Trust What I Trust?
    Me, Myself and I
    Penetrate the Smoke Screen I See Through the Selfishlie
     
    Doesn't Matter What You See
    Or into it What You Read
    You Can Do it Your Own Way
    If It's Done Just How I Say
     
    Independence Limited
    Freedom of Choice
    Choice Is Mad for You My Friend
    Freedom of Speech
    Speech Is Words That They Will Bend
    Freedom with Their Exception
     
    Do You Know What I Know?
    Your Money End Your Wealth
    Your Silence Just to Hear Your Self
    Do You Want What I Want?
    Desire Not a Thing
    I Hunger after Independence Lengthen Freedom's Ring
     
    Doesn't Matter What You See
    Or into it What You Read
    You Can Do it Your Own Way
    If It's Done Just How I Say
     
    Independence Limited
    Freedom of Choice
    Choice Is Mad for You My Friend
    Freedom of Speech
    Speech Is Words That They Will Bend
    Freedom no longer frees you
     
    Doesn't Matter What You See
    Or into it What You Read
    You Can Do it Your Own Way
    If It's Done Just How I Say
    Lyrics for the day (New Wave)
     
    The Ballad of Peter Pumpkinhead
    XTC
     
    Peter Pumpkinhead came to town
    Spreading wisdom and cash around
    Fed the starving and housed the poor
    Showed the vatican what gold's for

    But he made too many enemies
    Of the people who would keep us on our knees
    Hooray for Peter Pumpkin
    Who'll pray for Peter Pumpkinhead?
    Oh my!

    Peter Pumpkinhead pulled them all
    Emptied churches and shopping malls
    Where he spoke, it would raise the roof
    Peter Pumpkinhead told the truth

    But he made too many enemies...

    Peter Pumpkinhead put to shame
    Governments who would slur his name
    Plots and sex scandals failed outright
    Peter merely said
    Any kind of love is alright

    But he made too many enemies...

    Peter Pumpkinhead was too good
    Had him nailed to a chunk of wood
    He died grinning on live TV
    Hanging there he looked a lot like you
    And an awful lot like me!

    But he made too many enemies...

    Hooray for Peter Pumpkin
    Who'll pray for Peter Pumpkin
    Hooray for Peter Pumpkinhead
    Oh my oh my oh!
    Doesn't it make you want to cry oh?
    07 September

    Back to Work notice

    Finally on the floor.
     
    Let's see... need to meet up with my agents, set up my email account and message rules, provide floor support, familiarize myself with the processes and templates being used, find out who to contact in case problems come up, bang my head against my desktop for leaving Sykes, etc, etc...
     
    No sweat...
     
    Probably get the hang of this in a couple years.
     
    Plus it's raining cats and dogs (and water too), woke up 15 minutes before my shift starts (thus got to work 15 minutes late), and feel like a dog kicked me in the head.
     
    "LASCIATE OGNE SPERANZA, VOI CH'INTRATE!"
     
    (sigh...)
     
    On the lighter side, at least I got to see the guys I loved working with over the past few years when I crashed the Sykes party over at Stars Venue last Monday. Damn, I miss you guys.
     
    Lyrics for the day (Metal)
     
    Pisschrist
    Fear Factory
     
    Where are we now?
    When we are blind
    Abandoned faith
    You left behind
    Where you betrayed?
    Or did you lie?
    Our common fate
    Our common demise
    Where is the son?
    To light the way
    Along the path
    Of our dismay
    Look to the sky
    On judgement day
    A human god
    That was man-made
    So we lie
    So we lie
    So we lie
    So we lie
    And so we rise
    Just to fall down
    In reality
    You're never found
    I'm reaching out
    With sealed eyes
    I grab for light
    Visions decried
    [Repeat fourth verse]
    So we lie
    So we lie
    So we lie
    So we lie
    Face down, arms out
    Nailed to the cross of doubt
    Blood runs like rain
    Drowning for this world in vain
    Crown of black thorns
    Human skin, ripped and torn
    Crown of black thorns
    Human skin, ripped and torn
    Where is your savior now?
    Where is your savior now?
    Where is your savior now?
    Where is your savior now?
     
    Lyrics for the day (New Wave)
     
    ...From Across the Kitchen Table
    Pale Fountains
     
    in a cheap hotel room the miraculous way you bucked up
    when I said you were incredibly beautiful
    remember Arthur Seaton said he won't be beaten
    look at jimmy price what with the weight of Christ
    I don't know they say maybe it's the water across the kitchen table
    and I don't know they say maybe it's the water
     
    you saved my life, I fought you
    you should have told me to stop
    why did you let me keep on going for you?
     
    I've seen all your hooks, read the important books
    and thought about the disabled
    but the only thing between you and me is the fact you laugh when I'm unstable
    but I don't know they say maybe it's the water across the kitchen table
    and I don't know they say maybe it's the water
     
    you saved my life, I fought you
    you should have told me to stop
    why did you let me keep on going for you?
     
    in a cheap hotel room the miraculous way you bucked up
    when I said you were incredibly beautiful
    remember Arthur Seaton said he won't be beaten
    look at jimmy price what with the weight of Christ
    I don't know they say maybe it's the water across the kitchen table
    and I don't know they say maybe it's the water
     
    you saved my life, I fought you
    you should have told me to stop
    why did you let me keep on going for you?
    03 September

    TERRIBILIS EST LOCUS ISTE

    F*CKSHITBITCHWHORECOCKPUSSYMUTHAF*CKA! That's all I can say...
     
    What have I gotten myself into? Even worse, what have I forsaken to be where I am now?
     
    If you're well-versed in Latin, or have read "Holy Blood, Holy Grail," you'll understand what I'm referring to by translating the title of this entry. If you can't tell Latin from Swahili or hate conspiracy novels, then prove your intelligence by finding out what it means for yourself.
     
    If you manage to do so, then you've shown more smarts than I have...
     
    Lyrics for the day (Metal)
     
    Balance of Power
    Xentrix
     
    Twisted minds that work as one,
    They plot your destiny.
    You stand and watch your only son,
    Deprived of dignity.
    Contempt and hatred all you feel,
    Devoted loyalty.
    A wound you know will never heal.
    Doubting integrity.

    You sent him out to pay the price.
    Did what you thought was best.
    You sent him out to be a man.
    Almost laid to rest.
    Unseen powers that deal the cards,
    Faceless homocide.
    A bitter rage you can't reveal,
    Because of stupid pride.

    What you want ain't always good for you.
    It's just the way the balance swings for you,
    Balance swings for you.

    Have no conscience, feel no pain,
    All you need's a flag.
    No glory now, the switch is made,
    Uniform to body bag.
    But after all, did you see the truth?
    Find the real war?
    What you want ain't always good for you.
    No cause worth dying for.
    What you want...

     
    Lyrics for the day (New Wave)
     
    Whatever Possessed You
    Care
     
    Goodbye my love
    Heaven it has been long
    Now young men
    '
    s arms
    Don't seem quite so strong


    November bites
    Deep as the snow flowers form
    This bed is colder than chloroform

     

    Never darken my door
    Whatever possessed you all?
    Somewhere there's an end to this
    Woe betide me
    I wouldn't dream of it


    Beware my love
    This tongue is a dying flame
    My lies they fall like an acid rain
    November the sheet wears thin
    as silently love corrodes
    Beloved angel, you're skin and bones

     

    Never darken my door
    Whatever possessed you all?
    Somewhere there's an end to this
    Woe betide me
    I wouldn't dream of it


    November bites
    Deep as the snow flowers form
    This bed is colder than chloroform

     

    Never darken my door
    Whatever possessed you all?
    Somewhere there's an end to this
    Woe betide me
    I wouldn't dream of it

    01 September

    5 days before go live...

    Welcome the blog virgin.
     
    I am having just the sickest sense of deja vu I've had in quite a while. Feels like I'm reliving 3 different chronologically significant events in a matter of a week. Let's see... feeling like the training I'm getting right now is a pathetic waste of my goddamn time - yup, been there, done that (all those management training seminars back at my old company)... going through the exact same curriculum and watching my co-trainees' faces get plastered with that "information overload" look - yeah, definitely seen that before (5 months of training the same material in El Salvador)... butterflies in the stomach in anticipation of finally hitting the floor and being productive - now THAT I haven't felt in a while. I'm guessing the last time that feeling crept over me was when I was newly promoted to the Team Lead post back in Sykes.
     
    Speaking of Sykes, I miss that company already. Dropped by RS yesterday to set the 26th floor on fire if IT still wasn't through signing my clearance form. Good thing they were done with it. Felt a cold wave of nostalgia smother me on the elevator ride up. Had a hard time filling out the exit interview form since I didn't know why I chose to leave such a great company and roll the dice by moving over to a new one. Then I remembered the loathing and discontent I felt during my last few days with the company that was caused by the walking abomination every sentient organism on the 25th floor had grown to detest with the most hellish of spite. Oh, yeah... THAT'S why...
     
    Now the whole class is idle. Everyone either browsing, updating their webpages and shit. As for me, I'm listening to Echo and the Bunnymen's rendition of the Doors' classic "People Are Strange" while writing my very first blog. Nobody feels like asking who'll be handling our class today. And to think this class is comprised of 11 Team Managers due to go live next Monday.
     
    Oh yeah... Mom's coming home tomorrow. Hope she brings back some candy for my girlfriend and Pop Tarts for me.
     
    Lyrics for the day (Metal)
     
    Mentally Afflicted
    Vio-Lence 

    Enter I, disturbing peace of mind
    pressure reflects me.
    Manipulate, and break the feeling of faith.
    Weak fools obsess me.
    Glare inside, shines my mind
    it's quite distorted, it's so cruel.
    Afflicted traits, extending outward my hate
    sharp words detest you.

    I am the thorn in the side.
    Pressure that's never denied.
    Call me - Call me - Call me mad.
    My look is often a grin
    cold as it's sin.
    Call me - Call me - Call me mad.

    We evil kind, we evil subject your pride
    intent oppression.
    An open sore, into it salt we will pour
    verbal aggression!
    Conscience collapsed, feelings for you waxed
    by my mental affliction.
    I carry pride, I hold it high at my side
    cause your submission.

    I am the thorn in the side.
    Pressure that's never denied.
    Call me - Call me - Call me mad.
    My look is often a grin
    cold as it's sin.
    Call me - Call me - Call me mad.

    At times I'd love to feel the break of your spine.
    Your pain, my hand, my God, that would do me just fine.
    But intelligence tells me constrain, don't do that.
    Use your wit, make 'em pay, verbal attack.
    Your cowardice, your whimpering makes me sick.
    In your face, your ugliness, on it I could spit.
    Divine reprisal, I'm getting under your skin.
    Contemptuous me, I will always win.

    Cold hate.
    Feel the pain to which I relate, my
    Harsh Hell.
    Satisfies, sanctifies me as well.
     
    Lyrics for the day (New Wave)

    Confession

    The Color Field

    well i
    sat around on the 15th floor
    amongst the factory clouds
    feeling free to fall
    with a twisted, burning, bending head
    the police cruised by
    the sky turned red
    i moved away from the barricades
    where people hung their heads in shame
    i kissed goodbye to an ugly youth
    leapt off the world and followed you

    the sweetest sight
    was burning bright
    in your eyes
    you took my hand
    and led me to
    a magic sign
    and we found love on a stained glass plate
    you touched my head and gave me faith
    and said i must be strong in this world of hate
    you kissed my lips and took my breath away

    well we soldiered on for 15 days
    and met a million people on our way
    we held their hands, to steal their land
    and turn our bibles into building plans
    we gave them beads and a t.v. set
    and turned their babies into fighting men
    we took no blame for the lives we lost
    because we did it all in the name of god

    the greatest thing
    was a new born king
    with a million by his side
    we were high on prayers
    climbing golden stairs
    when we took the magic ride

    and we found love on a stained glass plate
    you touched my head and gave me faith
    and said i must be strong in this world of hate
    you kissed my lips and took my breath away

    we found love on a golden day
    you touched my head, you gave me faith
    and said i must be strong in this world of hate
    you kissed my lips and took my breath away

    took my breath away
    you touched my head
    and gave me faith
    you said i must be strong
    in this world of hate
    so kiss my lips and take my breath away
    kiss my lips and take my breath away